复杂的我

 

心内有好多说不出的话
不知如何开始。。。

Just thinking…

 

In relation to Darren Ng’s case, where is the ethic in taking photographs of him lying in a pool of blood, slashed and dying, and publishing them to the world? If he was your BROTHER, would you do that?

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While brushing my teeth last night, a revelation suddenly dawned on me that the reason why we could have a relationship with God and could actually FEEL God’s presence is simply because He is our heavenly Father.

I am saying this in relation to my older brother whom I have never gotten to see, whom passed on due to miscarriage a year before me. In spite of this, I sometimes still think of him and could actually feel close to him.

I can never understand this bond which we have.

I guess it’s not a common topic to talk about since it’s perhaps illogical, but I had a discussion with a few who had the same experience, so I’m glad I’m not mental as I sometimes thought myself to be.

And I guess it’s the same concept for God. Though I have not seen Him, we have a bond which none could break. Those who have not known Him would probably find it hard to fathom and conclude we are really in delusion.

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It’s a haphazard post, just to clear my mind, I’m rushing off to school to do up my essay.

And oh it’s Saturday.

Hi November

Updates

Piano - Teacher has finished teaching Bach’s prelude and fugue no. 21 for my exam. Currently practising that and Chopin’s Waltz in Db major. Will start on Haydn’s Sonata in C# minor exam piece the next lesson.

Cello - Lesson will commence next Saturday with my new teacher. Back to basics yet again. Have not practised. Orchestra is currently rehearsing Beethoven's No. 5.

School - Currently working on a research review essay, one more major assessment ahead and I need to start preparing for end of semester exams.

Mood - Stressed, distressed, depressed.

Quality of LIFE - Low.

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Deary me, what have I gotten myself into.